Hello everyone, I think I'm having a bit of crisis here. I just finished my 3rd year of med-school and now I'm going into my clinical years. I decided to make an internship in a foreign country, I know the language but it's still sometimes hard to talk or explain myself %100. It's the first time I'm doing blood taking, placing iv catheters etc.
Two days ago, I wanted wrong lab results ( much more than wanted) and it turns out they were very expensive. I saw one of the doctors telling this problem to the nurses, interns and doctors and he was very angry. I just stood there and couldn't say it was me who ordered it. I was freaked out, I mean I'm trying to learn everything, it's a bit of struggle between me,medicine and foreign language. I was very sad that I made a mistake. I know, it's not like i hurt someone but still… Because of that today I took a day off because I was afraid that he was going to ask me about it and going to be mad at me again. Besides that I already feel like an outsider here so.. How do I move on? How do I think healthy in those situations? My motivation went down so much I started to keep counting weeks that I have here. Now I got a bit of anxiety that I will make a mistake again and they will see me useless trainee.
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