90% of the time I love my job. But then there are days…when I just think I CAN'T anymore. I'm the only physician in my rural clinic. I do have an NP who is amazing and we digest with each other, but at the same time I'm their direct supervisor and they also have their own personal burdens.
Whom do I go to when an instance of my own poor medical judgment causes an adverse patient outcome? Or just when the emotional load and pressure of being "the doctor" in the community starts to feel too much?
I feel lucky to be where I am. I feel like (most of) my patients love me and I love (most of) them. But I really don't wanna burn out. I came to a rural setting for the slower pace. One of my old mentors I reached out to once at a large academic clinic told me that the feelings of isolation and loneliness pervades practitioners even in those settings, so I guess we're all alone together! And so here I go posting about it on Reddit…
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