As title states. I'm a hospitalist, newly grad from residency, and just out in the work force. My first week on as a hospitalist didn't turn out too well. Had a CODE blue cardiac arrest on me. Cannot say that I predicted it but had a feeling the patient was the sickest on my census. It's easier to look back and think of what I should have done earlier, but in the moment it appears as if nothing like this was coming.
I have dealt with death before and cases going the wrong way. However this one in particular hits me hard especially as an Attending and first time on the job. Starting to make me doubt why I choose the field I am in. Make me think to switch career. Not a great feeling. No SI/HI so don't worry but def confidence in myself in the toilet. I know I'm a good physician, I know I'm not the best out there but I work really hard to get where I am.
Any suggestions on how to cope will help.
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