I work in a NICU at a fairly large hospital and I had a premature baby come in at 23 weeks. And that baby stayed with us for 6 or 7 months and in that time I took him almost exclusively on the weekends. So I got very close to the family and the baby in that time. They were so nice. If I had time I would always stop and chat in between doing things. They played jokes on me, we laughed, we talked for hours, we would help them get him up to hold. God I loved that family and that baby and I really think they loved having me there.
He was always a little bit of an under dog. He had a lot of health issues and his lungs were a big one. We tried alot of things with him. Some things worked and some didn’t. He ended up getting a trach and at our hospital they usually will go to the PICU once they get one and that’s what happened. So he went down and I haven’t seen him or his family for probably a month or two. But he passed away this week in a kind of a freak way that I won’t elaborate on but it wasn’t expected.
I’m having a hard time processing his passing as I really thought he was going to make it out. By the time he got his trach he would smile and play and started doing baby things and it was amazing seeing his progress. I’m deeply saddened by his passing and I’m not going to lie and say I haven’t cried.
So what this post is really about is have any of you been to a patient’s funeral/viewing? I have talked to a few of the nurses and I get very mixed responses. Some say if you have that kind of connection with them then you should go and other say it’s best to let to go. I think it may help me but maybe it’s irrational but I have this fear that seeing me is going to make them relive their NICU experience. Am I being irrational?
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